Having A Moment

I think there comes a time in our lives (for some of us a few times) where we sit back and think, how did I get here? Sure, we could verbally explain the physical ways and our thought processes that make our decisions but how was it possible? You think about how different your life would have been if you would have just made one tiny difference in your choices and actions. Some you can deal with, others are harder to grasp. They aren't necessarily mistakes though. Just ones you would've preferred had gone in another direction. I speak as though I am not the only one who feels this way. Hopefully.

Everything is going well. I'm a very happy, energetic person. However, I'm also a very passionate, emotional person. I'm one that can relate to the lyrics of almost every song out there, can come up with solutions for issues of others and give people the benefit of the doubt even if they are far from deserving it. Sometimes I feel like I think about others more than my own self. That can be a good thing or a bad thing. I also feel like sometimes the way I feel for someone can take the focus off of the hurt that I have received from that same person. I suppose it's a good thing that I have these qualities but at the same time I have felt like I've been taken advantage of as well. Hasn't everyone though?

The point through all this nonsense is..
Even though someone can hurt you, even if you don't get the same compassion from someone you feel it for the most, even though you help others through their problems, your decisions are only your decisions and that's the one thing no one can control but you. I used to think if it were up to me, my life would be completely different. But it is up to me. The Spirit, of course, is the influence but again, it's your choice to listen to it.