Bitter Sweet

My Thanksgiving was good. I went to Ally and Ashley's uncle's family's house. LOL We had a really good time and it was fun getting to know new people. I'm lucky to have friends who let me into their home on holidays I'm not able to spend with my own family. I missed being with my family. It was hard. I talked to them that morning for a while and I just miss waking up and smelling the awesome food my mom has made. I'm so stoked to be going home for Christmas in 4 weeks. I'm almost not even in reality right now because I'm too excited about Christmas. My dad was in Iraq last year for Holloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, My brother and I's birthday, his birthday and also my parents anniversary. It sucked. So, this year, I'm going to make the best of it. It's getting tougher being here as the holidays keep coming. It's weird actually. I've always been with my family so I'm starting to feel more and more like an adult...lol




Ok, so I'm going to tell you about something that happen to me last week and it's not going to make me look good but it opened my eyes bigger and I thought I would share it. The day before Thanksgiving, I had just come home from work and being that I work ALL the time, I was SO tired and worn out. Ally and Ashley left to get their parents from the airport so it was just me at home. I was watching TV in a daze, when I got a knock at the door. I'll be honest, I thought about not answering it because of how I felt but feeling like it may be something important, I opened the door. It was this girl that I didn't recognize or know. I automatically assumed it was for one of my roomates. I said Hi and she said, "Are you here by yourself?" I was thinking, that's a weird question but I answered anyways and said I was. Then she said, "Well I live next door (Introduced herself) and saw most of the apartment's lights were off and yours was on, so I thought maybe someone was here alone and needed someone to talk to." I was thinking by this point, well I'm fine and I am really just tired but instead blurted out that I was about to leave to visit a friend in SLC. WHHHHYYY???? I don't even know where that came from. I saw this disappointed look on herself but she still was very friendly and nice. The whole time she stood outside I was thinking to myself, I just want to be by myself and relax. She told me to have a good night and left. I sat on the couch for about 10 minutes feeling so bad. Lying to her (Which I didn't intentionally try to do) and not be more friendly towards her made ME sick to my stomach. Maybe I'm not the one needing company. Maybe it was her looking for a friend. Even though it's such a small example, I think times in our life when we don't think we have the time to make a friend or to talk to someone, we should think about all the time that we do have and don't spend it wisely. This story makes me think of a song that is on the EFY 2007 Soundtrack. It's called, "When All is Said and Done." I love the lyrics. I was selfish for not taking out 30 minutes out of my so called "Busy" life to make a new friend and make someone feel good. That's why I appreciate the missionaries who take two years out of their lives to do just that.

When the music fades into the past,
When my days of life are through,
What will be remembered of where I've come,
When all is said and done.

Will they say I loved my family,
That I was a faithful friend,
That I lived to tell of God's own Son,
When all is said and done.

How I longed to see the hour,
When I would hear that trumpet sound
And rise to see my Savior's face,
See Him smile and say" Well done."

You can forget my name and the songs I've sung,
Every rhyme and every tune,
But remember the truth of Jesus' love,
When all is said and done.

When all is said and done.