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South Carolina Sunrise



It's taken me this long to write an update? People that I don't even know read this is always asking me when I'm going to update. More people go on here more than I thought so I feel bad knowing they click on my name and......nothing. It would be absolutely impossible to update on ten months worth of troubles, excitement, vacations, etc... so I'll give brief ones and hopefully (cross your fingers) get on a roll of doing this more often.
I started a new job that I honestly don't remember if I had shared already. I worked for a dental office in Lehi being a patient advocate. Basically it's where you sit down with patients, go over all of their dental needs whether it's needed or something they want cosmetically, and talk about the finances with them. Part of my job as well is to find payment plan options, if they would like, and try to qualify them. I loved interacting with my patients because you become so close with some of them. They will call you as many times they need or want to verify information, get your opinion, ask for other options or to simply ask to come in to speak with you again. I loved doing something to help people especially when someone breaks down in your consult room in tears because they cannot afford something they need so bad. I also was trained on monitoring for IV sedations. I would step in when we were low on our dental assistants and help monitor vitals and to re-fill the sedation meds for the doctor. I'd also keep all the stats and how much meds were being used. This to me was so interesting because if you know me, you'd know that I am absolutely TERRIFIED of needles. Not sure where it came from because nothing traumatic ever happened to me. It's just a fear that has always been in me. Any time I see a needle I get weak and feel nauseated. Weird...I know. The first time I tried to monitor being trained, my boss asked me to step out because I became so white in the face, she was afraid I was going to pass out. So I did. Then I tried again and again. I still feel the same with needles and anything dental, medical etc...but I at least faced my fears and pulled through.

I was there for about ten months then quit so I could spend time with my family in South Carolina. Since moving to Utah four years ago (Yes, I said FOUR years) I've only been able to come home for a few days at a time a couple of times a year. That's not a lot for me because I'm EXTREMELY close to my family. So, I've gotten to spend about two months. It's been so great just being with them. My brother is deploying again to Afghanistan mid October so this has been perfect timing to be able to be a family of four again. I'm not going to lie...I've missed the thunderstorms! Living in Okinawa, North Carolina and being in SC I've always LOVED thunderstorms because I think they are exciting!! Utah...not so much. People drive 20 mph on the roads when it's SPRINKLING. Big pet peeve of mine. I'm definitely going to miss being home after I leave. Can't say I want to go back but I know eventually I'll just have to. :( I will say one of my regrets is not taking pictures. I used to be so great at that and I'm just not anymore.

I probably shouldn't write about the relationship part of my life because I rarely ever do. I feel like for journaling purposes I should briefly because writing in my journal is so lacking right now. Most of everyone knows I've been on and off with someone for two years. He's been a very very special part of my life and we have so much history that it has been very hard. It honestly could go one way or another but at this point I'm so exhausted. Probably a bad sign and my answer, right? I've put a lot of energy into it because of my faith in it so it's going to be a very hard while to put myself back together. Oh Love, so great to have but so very hard and confusing.

Anyways, hopefully I'll do better at this whole blogging thing. Don't hold your breath. :)